There is a song by Big Daddy Weave called “Jesus I Believe”. It is a beautiful song basically saying that this person believes in Jesus, but at the same time it feels like they are struggling. They want to feel the presence of Jesus because they believe in Him, but that relationship may not be what it should. At least that is how I understood the song, but lets face it, only the songs author knows what they truly mean.
We who are Christian, and that includes me, need to start acting the way Christ wants us to act. We have been influenced and corrupted by the world and Satan. For those that have a great relationship with Him, that is awesome and while I am not supposed to be jealous, I am.
This is not saying that I cannot have a relationship as well and experience what you are, but that It has not happened yet or at least I do not think it has happened. I believe that Christ is the Son of God, but is yet God. I believe that He came to Earth to die for my sins. He has shown me how to live my life and gave me commandments to follow. I believe that ffter His death, He arose on the third day to ascend into Heaven to sit at the right hand of God.
Despite knowing who Jesus is and why He came, I can honestly say that I have not lived up to His expectations or at least I feel like I have not. I do not love my neighbor as myself at times. This is really true when I am on the road. It does not matter if I am driving or being driven. I typically display anger and hatred towards my fellow man (this includes women). At other times I am okay until I engage in a conversation about a topic that I am passionate about and then I am sure that it comes as anger or hatred. I know I do not show compassion towards other as I should. I also know that I say I have forgiven people, but is that true or have I just put it out of my mind.
I am not sure that I have fully demonstrated love for God. Mostly, because I am not really sure what love is at times. I know that I have not gone into all the world and made disciples baptizing them in the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Ghost.
So when I hear this song “Jesus I Believe”, it makes me think about the relationship I want with Jesus, but have failed to have. In other words, I need to take a hard deep look at my life and decide. Do I want a relationship with Christ and God or not? It is that simple. I say I do, but then why am I not acting like I do? That is a tough question that will take time to answer.