Recently, I have been having a hard time coming up with a topic to write about and it has got me wondering. Has God used me for my intended purpose and I am now done?
When I first started writing about 2 to 3 years ago, it was because I thought God wanted me to write to reach people through a different media. Before the internet, people had to physically travel to other countries to preach. We are instructed by Christ to go into all the world and preach the Gospel.
Mark 16:15 New International Version (NIV)
15 He said to them, “Go into all the world and preach the gospel to all creation.
Today, we have the internet that can reach millions worldwide in seconds.
Is this due to my own stubbornness in resisting change? I have asked God to change me for His purpose and I am sure He has tried, but we have freewill. God is Lord of all, but He will not force us to follow Him or do His will. Lets be real, have I changed or have I gotten worse in regards to how I treat other people?
I honestly believe that I have gotten worse. I seem to get angry easier, I know that I do not love my neighbor as myself, I am selfish, I know my heart is hardened towards my fellow man, and I know that I do not represent Christ to others the way He should be represented. I do not want any of that.
How do I change? It is not an easy road and it requires sacrifice. I need to sacrifice the fleshly and worldly desires for the what God desires.
Sounds simple right? Well it is one of the hardest things I will ever have to do.