I struggle with road frustration. I would not call it so much rage these days, but it use to be or I think it was. I have followed people and confronted them. I have gotten out of my car in parking lots and confronted them. I have never been in a fight, shooting, or anything violent, but I have been in a few shouting matches where I have told people to just go ahead and do whatever it is you were planning to do.
Although once a nut job almost hit us because he decided he did not want to stop, almost hit us when he went by, and even decided to start slamming his breaks on when he got in front of us. I did not go through the red light when he turned, but did see where he go. I found his car in the parking lot and parked in front of it. I then went into the doctors office to confront this individual whom I thought owned the vehicle, but there was some doubt he was the owner. If I had known exactly who owned that vehicle, I probably would have killed him with my hands on the spot. I was that furious.
Most of the time my thought was this person just endangered my families life, so I was going to eliminate the threat. However, looking back now who was really endangering my families life? Was it the moron who decided to cut me off, not stop, get over in front and slam the breaks, etc. or me the other moron who then decided to let that individual dictate how I behaved and chase/confront?
Well if you are saying the first moron, you are wrong. It was the second, that is it was me that endangered my family the most.
I still have some issues, but they are no where near what they use to be. Most of the time now I shake my head, ask why, say move on, stop worrying about me and just drive, move over to the right lane if you are not going to go the speed limit, there is a red light/stop sign for a reason, etc.
While not where I want to be what caused the change? Was it due to me getting older, my wife constantly telling me to stop, the thought of going to jail, the thought of harming the kids? You probably already guessed it, but the answer is no.
The change was due to several things, but all them were centered around Christ. I became a Christian, but that only sort of slowed it down. It was not until I decided to go into a person who specializes in deliverance. He focused on a few things such as soul ties, witchcraft, forgiveness, confirmed my belief in Jesus, then he went into a sort of lets see what is there because it may not be a deliverance issue but a discipline issue.
As it turned out when he went through rage and anger there was nothing, then frustration and that stirred a few things, then a few other paths, then into criticism and that seemed to stir a lot of things. When you look at “Pigs In A Parlor” it is not surprising that frustration and criticism seemed to be a stronghold since they are grouped together. All these years I would have thought rage and anger would have been the strongholds, but no.
While I mentioned the deliverance specialist as the person who performed the deliverance, he did it in Jesus’s name and gave all credit to Jesus. At times I actually thought he was bored or something, but he assured me that he really had nothing to do with the process and that it was Jesus.
Matthew 10:5-8 New International Version (NIV)
5 These twelve Jesus sent out with the following instructions: “Do not go among the Gentiles or enter any town of the Samaritans. 6 Go rather to the lost sheep of Israel. 7 As you go, proclaim this message: ‘The kingdom of heaven has come near.’ 8 Heal the sick, raise the dead, cleanse those who have leprosy, drive out demons. Freely you have received; freely give.
It was because of Jesus that I ultimately changed and will continue to change. He will not lead you into a path of destruction, but salvation. I pray that you accept Jesus as your Lord and Savior so you to will come to know the peace and joy that I have found.