Today was a rough day from about 5:40PM to 7:15PM. I was just hateful, irritable, and plain old grumpy. Maybe it was food, but I doubt it.
I have a problem when people do not go the speed limit to the tune of driving 10 to 30 mph under the speed limit. I was taught that it is okay to go that speed, but pull over and let those behind you go who want to go the actual speed limit. Not where I live. It is more like I am not pulling over and I am not going faster and I am not going to let you pass, etc.
So I got mad and unfortunately, about 95% of the time, only my wife hears it. I know it aggravates her when I get that way and I have tried to mellow and to be honest it does not happen all the time, but when it does boy do I just let it fly.
I know I will be judged how I am judging others and to be honest at those points in time, I am judging them. I am judging them as being ignorant, hateful, obnoxious, rude, arrogant, purposely doing this, and the list could go on and on. However, I really do not know why they are not going the speed limit, but what I do know is that it is impeding my ability to get from point A to point B.
So is them or is it me? I would have to say it is a combination, but I would have to put most of the blame on me. Does it really matter if I get there a minute or two or even three later. What does that impact? Nothing.
I am letting the people who do drive/act that way affect my attitude, behavior, mood, and everything else negatively. I have prayed for patience multiple times and God is delivering and I am failing.
I am just thankful that the Lord is a loving and forgiving God. I am also grateful that I have not done anything stupid enough to cause me to go to jail, because there have been a few times where my temper has gotten the better of me. The Lord put my wife into the car with me since she is the only one that can quickly calm me down. Thank you God.
What do I need to do? Continue to pray for patience, recognize that God is putting these obstacles/tests in front of me so that I will learn to be more patient, rely on Christ to help me when I am having a hard or difficult time/situation, and realize with Gods help that if I am being delayed then it is for my good.
I pray that God will continue to provide me with the opportunities to learn patience. I pray that when I am having a hard time, that I will remember to ask Christ for help. I also ask to realize that in those times there is a reason and it is not just to make me mad, but to delay me for a purpose. I ask the Lord to help anyone out there that needs some patience and is seemingly having a rough time driving to the point of where road rage is entering your life and is going to cause you problems. In Jesus name I ask for this, Amen.