I am sure you have heard the phrase “Home is where the heart is.” I will be traveling again and honestly it sucks. While I may be in a hotel room and about 200 miles from home, my heart will always be here at the house.
Do we need the money? Yes! Does the church need the money? Yes! However, is that sufficient reason to travel and be so far away from home? I guess that depends.
I have been out of work for roughly 8 to 9 months and I feel like the Lord has put this opportunity in front of me for a reason. If I feel this way even though I do not really want to go, do I ignore it? Is that committing sin?
If this is God’s will, then yes it is sin not to take the job. However, if God is just giving me an opportunity and it is up to me to make the decision, then no it is not sin. God gives us choices all the time and it is up to us to decide to follow them or not. It becomes sin when it is God’s will but we choose not to follow His will. Remember, sometimes it is a test.
This could be a way for God to see how we handle the money. I have asked God to help us get out of dept and I believe this job was provided by Him to us as a way to achieve that prayer.
My wife is upset that I will be traveling again after being home for so long, but I have to trust that the Lord has a better plan than I or her. Now, I could have done a lot more while I was home such as build my resume, look for a more local job, get involved in her business, but I did not. I spent time working on my sons car, building the Taj Mahal garden palace, gardening, trying to get my workshop setup, keeping the kitchen clean, cooking most of the time, getting stuff together for Goodwill, and generally being lazy. I have also spent some of my time watching stuff on Youtube to acquire more knowledge, watching Netflix or Amazon Prime, helping friends, helping the church a little, spending more money than I should have, and taking it pretty easy for the most part. Honestly, after traveling for the past 7 or so years, I wanted to just take it easy for a bit.
What has crossed my mind more than anything recently is that I could have gotten out there and introduced people to Christ and talked to them about our church. Now anyone that knows me, is probably thinking that is not such a good idea, and I would have to agree. However, I am reminded of Moses whom God called upon to go tell His chosen people about Him and to lead them out of Egypt to the Promised Land. Moses was reluctant, but trusted God and that is what I should be doing.
As I have stated, I really do not want to travel, but I need to work. I have to trust that God is helping us achieve our goal of becoming debt free as far as the house and student loans.
Some of you may ask why does God want you to travel and He may not. I do believe that God has put somethings in my path that He wanted me to take, but being blind and dumb as I am at times, I completely missed those chances. It could be that I did not want those or it could be that this is all I have known for the past 17 to 18 years, but I am not really sure.
I will continue to pray to God and trust His judgement on the matters concerning my life. If you are having a hard time with your life, try putting your trust in God. However, remember that He may take you places you do not want to go.